florescences | shadowheart catchall

[ yay handholds. elysia smiles although there's sad edge to it since someone is dead. ]

It's closer to you in a way. Will you be lonely?

[ even if shadowheart made a bad joke about having the room to herself, it is true. ]

I wouldn't say lonely, but I'll miss her. She was very considerate.

[they weren't extremely close, but she was a pretty nice person to share with.]

...Hmm. The last conversation we had was truly terrible. It's alarming you're being so friendly.

A better roommate than some others, I'm sure.

[ she hums a little and nods. ]

After talking to some others during the week, I thought it could be how people get weird every week, but even if it wasn't, I don't see why I shouldn't still treat you this way. Even if we don't agree, it doesn't mean I can't still care about you, does it?

It wasn't the first time someone said something like that to me, and I just want to know and understand you, no matter what that means.

[squinting at her.]

...No. You should be less okay with it. I said I was going to crush your hopes.

[putting aside that it's rude, that's also very cringe.]

[ she laughs. ]

But I was sure you couldn't, so it was fine. If you felt strongly about something, I wanted to acknowledge it.

[ cringe or not. ]

I've been called a traitor by people I consider dear, so it's really okay.

I don't feel strongly about any of that. It is what we believe. But I've never been good at believing it.

[she is the worst sharran ever, and she knows that about herself.]

Who calls you a traitor?

If you don't believe in it strongly, why do you remain tied to it?

[ she knows faith isn't so cut and dry, but if shadowheart is that self-aware, then why? ]

A dear friend. Mobius is kind of like... [ she puts a hand under her chin in thought. ] If you took parts of Kaworu and Wis'adel and mixed it with parts of Maomao, Ramiel, and Gamaliel... maybe you'd find someone like her? She's really cute.

That description sounds more scary than cute...

[but sure, that's a fair question.]

I was taken in when I was young and raised to be one of them. For most of my life, they're all I've had. My family, even if a poor semblance of one.

A lot of people are put off by her, and many of my friends usually tell visitors to avoid her.

[ but elysia still thinks mobius can be cute. ]

It is so hard to let go of family, especially when they're all you ever know. As long as it doesn't endanger you too much, I won't complain too much, but... if they don't care for you the way a family should... I'd like to see you get a better one.

[she laughs a little at that.]

...It's hard to believe someone like you can be real.

[the way she's just unfailing warm and kind to everyone. it seems like there should be a catch to it, but so far, there simply hasn't been one.]

I know you aren't wrong about that. [she's being honest about it now because she has thought about this.]

I've been called strange a few times. But it's not like I don't get annoyed or have things I hate.

[ It's just easier for her to smile and find things to love. After all her time, she hasn't wavered in that. ]

Are you thinking about changing that? If we get returned?

[ to life. ]

[she does think she's strange. but it's more that she's strange in such a nice way, and it's so clear to her that she shouldn't find it nice.]

Maybe. Probably. Following Shar is not really something you can do in half-measures, and I have been trying to do it in half-measures for far too long.

[so. either re-commit or change.]

I have my opinion on what I'd like for you, but I'm not you. I do want you to reach a beautiful ending, whatever choice you make.

You know, I think I do believe you when you say you want that.

[which is part of what is so baffling about her, that she does think elysia means the things she says.]

Even though you hardly know me, really.

[ elysia is so pleased to here that. her expression brightens more even for how already bright it is. ]

I'm trying to change that. I am~ I don't want my words to be meaningless, so you'll have to let me get to know you more. Won't you?

I will try to let you get to know me more.

[try, though she's not exactly holding back on purpose.]

[ she claps her hands together in delight. ]

Great! That's all I ask. Trying, more than any resisting.

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