[she does think she's strange. but it's more that she's strange in such a nice way, and it's so clear to her that she shouldn't find it nice.]
Maybe. Probably. Following Shar is not really something you can do in half-measures, and I have been trying to do it in half-measures for far too long.
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[ It's just easier for her to smile and find things to love. After all her time, she hasn't wavered in that. ]
Are you thinking about changing that? If we get returned?
[ to life. ]
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Maybe. Probably. Following Shar is not really something you can do in half-measures, and I have been trying to do it in half-measures for far too long.
[so. either re-commit or change.]
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[which is part of what is so baffling about her, that she does think elysia means the things she says.]
Even though you hardly know me, really.
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I'm trying to change that. I am~ I don't want my words to be meaningless, so you'll have to let me get to know you more. Won't you?
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[try, though she's not exactly holding back on purpose.]
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Great! That's all I ask. Trying, more than any resisting.