florescences | adolphe catchall

[ she tilts her head as she watches him. ]

I don't know if I'd go that far because... it wouldn't reach that point. [ in a hypothetical. ] What type are you, Adolphe? Would you want to keep the person you love all to yourself?

[ It's really funny because he was on an insane rampage and now he's calmer and talking about this. ]

... I think I would be jealous if other people looked at them that way.

[ it is, but this is what elysia wanted... to deescalate his mental breakdown. if she can calm him down by asking if he's open to poly or not, so be it. ]

You think so? Would it be a dealbreaker? Do you think you would only ever love one person? What if you loved two?

At the same time?

[ He looks confused. ]

If that's what you mean, wouldn't that just be a disaster? I don't think I can be like you and Yves.

I don't think so... not if everyone is on the same page. You don't have to be like me or like Yves. I want you to be you.

I'm not sure if I can love two—

[ ............

Adolphe frowns. ]

That's not even the important part. I don't understand how that can be done... for me, in my perspective. I think I'd just give up on both if that happened.

[ Does he think he deserves to love someone? Let alone two or more at once? Laughable. ]

[ she remembers the things she's seen in reflections and from his behavior and from how he's answered most of her affections.

if they have to start from the beginning... from the ground up, she may as well try. ]

You deserve any and all love, you know. Anyone would be lucky to love you and be loved by you. It doesn't have to be two. It can be just one.

... People would be lucky? Really?

[ Oh, to be emotionally vulnerable in a church with a beautiful person comforting you. ]

It must sound like the same song and dance, doesn't it?

I would feel lucky.

[ she is thinking about how they're surrounded by so much broken glass, but she is also thinking she wants adolphe to know love. ]

What do you mean by that?

You say nice things—not for the sake of being nice—and get rebuffed most of the time.

[ He is aware.

The glass shards start flying out to restore the church to its former glory. It doesn't take long, and all is back to the way it was. ]

Would they be lucky because of how rarely I do it?

[ He quietly huffs. ]

[ so he's aware. she smiles and shakes her head. ]

Everything I say is because I want to say it.

[ elysia hasn't seen the graveyard repair itself yet, so it's nice to know this side has that over the other side. ]

That would be part of it, but they would be lucky because it's you. If you let someone love you and if you let yourself love someone, why wouldn't that be one of the most fortunate things?

...

[ Adolphe looks off to the side. ]

Because I wouldn't be good enough for anyone. Subjecting the person I love to everything I am would be a disservice.

[ she thinks about his memories again, and she truly believes some people shouldn't be parents. ]

You and I are going to have to be enemies again.

[ she says that in the lightest tone, but she's so sincere. he isn't looking at her, but her determination is set. ]

All you've ever done since I've met you is help me. All I've done since meeting you is benefit. All you've done is convince me to want to know everything that you are.

[ Adolphe looks at Elysia, quiet. He's more back to normal and less of the void that was his emotion. ]

... I really... don't understand how it worked out like that. I can't understand you, but I tried to accept your actions anyway.

[ at least she's chased most of the void away. ]

You keep saying that with me. [ ... ] I hope you understand someday, and I hope it's sooner rather than later.

[ if only so she can leave knowing that he finally thinks he's deserving of love. ]

That's how bad it is.

[ I am personally sorry to elysia for accepting his bs ]

I hope it will happen before I die a third time.

[ lol lmao ]

Don't invoke your death like that. Let's say you'll move onto another life after this, even if it's not back to your old one, okay?

Will you at least think of that first, or try to?

[ is it accepting it if she's trying to dismantle it and rebuild it ]

... It sounds tiring to do it again, but that's what you do, don't you? When you told me...

[ His voice trails off. He frowns, looking extremely frustrated but eventually settles into a look of resignation. ]

When I told you.... what?

[ this could be any number of things. ]

When I asked if you would do it over and over again.

[ she remembers. she smiles a little, if only for what she can and can't do. ]

If I could, I would. I'd do it all again because it'd mean meeting you again.

[ its not quite what he meant, but she wants to make sure he understands her on this point. at least, on this one point. ]

... You know, that sort of thing is like a proposal.

[ He laughs weakly and can't even be embarrassed about it. Adolphe is definitely doing much better now. Elysia has the best attempt out of anyone. ]

If I start thinking that's normal, I don't think I'll have a good set of standards ever again.

[ she laughs. ]

If you want, you can chalk it up to be me being special, but... I do want a new normal for you.

[ he doesn't have to think everyone is like her. she just doesn't want him to think everyone thinks he isn't worthy of love. ]

I mean every word I say to you.

... You're special for sure.

[ He sighs. ]

But you're not perfect. You're like anyone else.

[ shakes checking the date for this pc

sorry that this is emotionshare week still and she had mostly calmed him down from the brink of his sanity, but what he says makes something unfurl and bloom in her feelings, something vibrant and warm. ]

Oh, Adolphe. You have no idea what you just said to me, do you?

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