I mean, yeah, in the sense that I thought he wasn't going to try to turn everyone into monsters and burn the whole world down, it'd be great if that person didn't exist.
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But not all of it was a matter of bein' misled. His plan was always a meritocracy where people who couldn't get by on their own would be weeded out, and we always knew he was ruthless in achieving what he wanted. Let whole villages burn to prove his points, and we went along with it.
[ more like he went along with it and basilio went along with him because he didn't realise that he wasn't always right. ]
...Think I just wanted so badly to overthrow the current system and get revenge on the fatcats at the top that I didn't really let myself think too hard about the fact that the world we were workin' toward was a pretty cruel one too.
[ this is where elysia really differs from junah in a way that always throws him; if junah said this to him, he'd be sure it was just teasing and dismiss it. it's taken him a while to wrap his head around the fact that elysia's compliments and affection actually seem to be sincere, and he's a lot less sure how to respond to that. ]
[ there are times where elysia will seek consent, and there are other times she will force it. it's a judgment call on what kind of trust can be built or lost and how much people believe in her sincerity and her affections.
she doesn't hesitate and sweeps in to hug him, delighted for the permission. ]
You're a lot sweeter than you give yourself credit for, you know. Even if you were willing to go to extremes for the change you wanted, it's a sign of how much you cared.
[ even if it came from a place where he felt wronged, to feel so strongly is caring. ]
And if Basilio could grow up so good and caring with you at his side, isn't that also a sign?
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[ in louis, she means. ]
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But not all of it was a matter of bein' misled. His plan was always a meritocracy where people who couldn't get by on their own would be weeded out, and we always knew he was ruthless in achieving what he wanted. Let whole villages burn to prove his points, and we went along with it.
[ more like he went along with it and basilio went along with him because he didn't realise that he wasn't always right. ]
...Think I just wanted so badly to overthrow the current system and get revenge on the fatcats at the top that I didn't really let myself think too hard about the fact that the world we were workin' toward was a pretty cruel one too.
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You were ready to grab any hand that would get you some kind of change.
[ it's not the best thing, but when you're so wronged, you can help but leap at a chance, she thinks.
she knows the extremes that people can leap to. ]
It's a sign of your heart's beauty that you can admit what you were complicit of. Not everyone is so willing to own up to their crimes.
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and he just looks embarrassed at the "heart's beauty" comment. aah. ]
Reckon that phrasing's a bit of a stretch, but. Glad I got it right eventually, at least.
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My phrasing is what I feel, Fidelio. Accept it, hmm?
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...Yeah, all right. If you're gonna insist.
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it's a gentle handhold. ]
I'll always insist. Even if you get sick of it, I'll continue.
[ it's called being annoying. ]
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Sort of figured you would.
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[ her ego. ]
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[ she pouts. ]
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Don't matter to me either way. [ ... ] Just want you to be what you want to be.
[ same or different. ]
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his answers brings more warmth to her smile. from someone like fidelio, she knows words like that should be cherished and treasured. ]
Is it okay if I hug you?
[ he really got her in the emotions. ]
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[ this is where elysia really differs from junah in a way that always throws him; if junah said this to him, he'd be sure it was just teasing and dismiss it. it's taken him a while to wrap his head around the fact that elysia's compliments and affection actually seem to be sincere, and he's a lot less sure how to respond to that. ]
Er. I guess, sure?
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she doesn't hesitate and sweeps in to hug him, delighted for the permission. ]
You're a lot sweeter than you give yourself credit for, you know. Even if you were willing to go to extremes for the change you wanted, it's a sign of how much you cared.
[ even if it came from a place where he felt wronged, to feel so strongly is caring. ]
And if Basilio could grow up so good and caring with you at his side, isn't that also a sign?