florescences | uruha catchall

[ get hugged, idiot!! get blasted by the full strength of her love, too, because of emotionshare.

she's so obnoxious about it. ]

Is it easier now that you're back, Yoji?

[ now he doesn't have to worry about what being apart from marcoh will do. he just has to worry about what being back together will mean. ]

[NOT THE EMOTIONSHARE]

... It's a start.

[better than being apart, unable to do anything at all about the situation besides write letters that marcoh had to be reminded to read.]

[ just feel constantly loved, uruha. ]

I saw that he didn't avoid you. That's a good sign, right?

[fun fact lowe told me that if marcoh hadn't gotten to execute siffrin, he would've broken up with uruha, and even so they were not completely out of the woods yet depending on how uruha handled things. so uruha really was not being dramatic on the other side when he worried about marcoh not wanting to see him.]

Yeah. Better than what I thought would happen.

[ nooooo

elysia would fight marcoh. (she would talk to him.) ]

I know you know him best, but if you think it'd help if other people tried to talk to him, I would.

[ outside of her wanting to talk to marcoh because she's concerned in general, relationship status aside. ]

... If it's about me specifically, I think other people bothering him about it will just make things worse.

Though he could always use another friend, to check up on him.

[give him space, but don't let him feel alone, either.]

I've been worried about him the last few days. His mental state....

[ he was breaking down on main. ]

Can we do enough to help?

With everything that's happened, I doubt anything will really help him right away.

[But we don't have much time left either...]

[ that is the problem... the time they have left. ]

Were you two going to go your separate ways after this, or....?

Yeah. We both have things to take care of in our own worlds.

[and that's something they've known from the beginning—that once this redemption trial was over, they'd be as well.]

[ she's going to come over and hug him. ]

I know you have your duty, but I'm glad you were able to know and find love with him. He makes you happy, right?

[hugs back...]

... Yeah.

[well, "happy" isn't the right word to use right now and perhaps hasn't been since even before this weekend, because marcoh has been doing poorly for a while and it's been draining on uruha too, but. even with that, uruha is at his most content by his side. he was never here only for the "good" moments.]

We knew what we were getting into. No regrets.

[ look... listen... she knows the trauma has been settling into cracks in horrible ways for so many. it's normal, it's natural, she knows how it takes hold of people. it wouldn't be love, to only accept what's good. not everything that is beautiful is wholly good.

it doesn't mean it's not worth it. it doesn't mean he shouldn't have it. it doesn't mean elysia doesn't want more for him either. ]

If there are no regrets, I have no complaints. I only want you two to have a more peaceful time in these last few days.

[ even though the pocket dimension is kind of ruining things a little and the mental states are in a nosedive. ]

If you two are sure, I can only support you, however I can.

[ although she does wish they could both choose an option that could make them happier. ]

... I appreciate it.

[even if there are blips of uncertainty, insecurity—uruha means it when he says he has no regrets, but a part of him has always wondered if marcoh could've done better, if uruha was enough. and then he feels guilty thinking these things, because he knows they hurt marcoh.]

Sorry that this probably wasn't the uplifting romance gossip you wanted, though.

You're thinking something silly, aren't you?

[ she can feel it. she rests her forehead against his shoulder and shakes her head. ]

Don't apologize. I wanted to know what was going on with you, period. I don't need it to be fun. I'm happy you two met even if right now, it's worse instead of better.

[ she sighs softly. ]

I'm learning a lot tonight.

[...]

You've been gone a while, and letters only say so much. Guess you've been doing a lot of catching up now.

Letters only say as much as whatever people choose to write. It's easier to catch things that aren't purposeful in person.

[ like how sad and heartbroken he can be. ]

I really have missed a lot in the time I've been gone.

[THIS ISN'T ABOUT HIM.]

People have missed you, too.

[ HE'S THE ONE IN FRONT OF HER? OF COURSE IT'S ABOUT HIM. ]

I'll have to work even harder to catch up on lost time. With you, and everyone else.

[he's fine!!!]

I don't doubt that if it's you, you'll make it seem like you never left to begin with.

[he was gay angsting over the entire graveyard. not for bad reason, but he was still gay angsting.

:o ]

That might be one of the nicest things you've said to me.

[look........]

Is it? I'm just being factual.

It's still sweet. Thanks, Yoji. That's how I want it to be.

You saying stuff like that is exactly why it's true.

Hmm? Then I'm staying true to myself just like you're staying true to yourself, aren't you?

week 7, monday

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