florescences | uruha catchall

... I appreciate it.

[even if there are blips of uncertainty, insecurity—uruha means it when he says he has no regrets, but a part of him has always wondered if marcoh could've done better, if uruha was enough. and then he feels guilty thinking these things, because he knows they hurt marcoh.]

Sorry that this probably wasn't the uplifting romance gossip you wanted, though.

You're thinking something silly, aren't you?

[ she can feel it. she rests her forehead against his shoulder and shakes her head. ]

Don't apologize. I wanted to know what was going on with you, period. I don't need it to be fun. I'm happy you two met even if right now, it's worse instead of better.

[ she sighs softly. ]

I'm learning a lot tonight.

[...]

You've been gone a while, and letters only say so much. Guess you've been doing a lot of catching up now.

Letters only say as much as whatever people choose to write. It's easier to catch things that aren't purposeful in person.

[ like how sad and heartbroken he can be. ]

I really have missed a lot in the time I've been gone.

[THIS ISN'T ABOUT HIM.]

People have missed you, too.

[ HE'S THE ONE IN FRONT OF HER? OF COURSE IT'S ABOUT HIM. ]

I'll have to work even harder to catch up on lost time. With you, and everyone else.

[he's fine!!!]

I don't doubt that if it's you, you'll make it seem like you never left to begin with.

[he was gay angsting over the entire graveyard. not for bad reason, but he was still gay angsting.

:o ]

That might be one of the nicest things you've said to me.