uruha catchall

[florescences]

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week 6, saturday

[florescences]

[ it is not exactly the way elysia wanted to reunite with uruha, and the trial ended much more dramatically and tense than she expected, but... it's fine.... sort of. elysia is at least composed after trial once she got her feelings sorted out.

she is worried about uruha as much as she worried about the mental states of both marcoh and siffrin, so she's looking for him. ]

Yoji. [ softly. ] If you can send Marcoh a dream, do you think that'd make it better or worse?

[ for the both of them. ]

[kumeyuri]

[possibly... still in the cafeteria...]

... I don't know. It doesn't seem like anything I've done managed to make things better.

[florescences]

[ oh, uruha. she will keep him company in the cafeteria for however long. ]

Grief is stronger the more you love. I don't think you did anything wrong. He just felt so strongly.

[kumeyuri]

He's always been someone who felt things strongly.

[I just wish it didn't have to turn into pain.]

[florescences]

I know. This place makes it hard to avoid pain. But at least.... you'll see him again soon.

[ i hope it'll be enough. ]

[kumeyuri]

[he hopes so too.]

They said something about Monday...?

[florescences]

Kiraman said he'll brief us with Lailah tomorrow, so we'll know more details then. His program will expedite yours and Siffrin's healing, so we can all go back safely.

[ or something along those lines. ]

[kumeyuri]

Okay.

... Sorry, Mary wouldn't tell me where Ariel is.

[florescences]

Why are you apologizing, silly? I'm not surprised. She's not that cooperative.

Oh. I did get some kind of reply from the Entity, believe it or not.

[kumeyuri]

Yeah? What'd they say?

[florescences]

They sent me alcohol.

[ not words.... but a thing. ]

[kumeyuri]

Oh.

Well, when I spoke to Gabriel, they did think that the entity was malicious, but not resentful, exactly...

[florescences]

It's a bit odd. I thought it'd give me something more malicious than it did. I was trying to get any kind of reaction out of them.

[ it could've been a lot worse. ]

[kumeyuri]

Sounds like you guys have been messing with a lot around here.

[florescences]

I've been writing a lot of letters more than anything else. Trying to chat with God and the Entity were my biggest experiments.

As for the others... everyone's doing their best.

[ probably. some more than others. ]

[kumeyuri]

That's pretty much a summary of this group.

[florescences]

[ she laughs a little. ]

What about you, hm? Are you trying your best? How have you been doing?

[kumeyuri]

[I'm pretty tired.]

What, do you think I wouldn't have been trying my best?

[florescences]

Of course I know you're trying your best to do things, but... you know what I mean, don't you?

[ i'm always worried about you. ]

[kumeyuri]

It feels like trying my best is all I can do, at this point.

[sometimes your mental health has been held together by tape since before you got here but while you don't take for granted the people who checked up on you, you've really felt obliged to hold it together the past weeks because others are losing it harder around you...]

[florescences]

It is that way for all of us.... Some are just better about it than others.

[ at least elysia is usually fine after a few passing moments, but that may be a little about what's insane about her. she can and does bounce back sincerely. ]

I don't mind it if you don't try your best all the time, too, you know.

[kumeyuri]

...

No point in anything else, right now.

[uruha knows that he's not a particularly strong person. his heart breaks easily, his attachment to life fragile. what he is good at is simply focusing.]

[florescences]

You'll make me cry, saying things like that.

[ it's said gently, not seriously, but she won't push him too much tonight. ]