florescences | anders catchall

[ elysia has too much curiosity not to look around at new locations, but sometimes, necessities are necessities.

she is coming out of the convenience store with toiletries. she waves at anders with a tube of toothpaste. ]

Hiiii. This new here isn't so bad, is it?

[ anders is also back into his clothes, but they're much less cute. he'll watch her come out of the store, but he's been sort of ... pacing around the neighborhood. Not going in anywhere quite yet, like he's nervous. ]

I don't know what the point of all of it. Apart from your-- Fun that is.

[ she watches him pace for a bit. ]

What if there isn't a point? What if we're here just to.... be? Is that so bad?

[ perish the thought. ]

I don't know how to just be. At least-- not anymore. I don't care for feeling trapped, no matter how gilded the cage.

We are caged. There's no way around that that I can see right now.

[ elysia has no optimism to flip that view. ]

But you may be inviting misery on yourself. Although... I wonder if that's something you already know?

Not even in death can one truly be free, and I'm the one inviting the misery? It seems to me the misery is simply happening and I'm caught in it no matter how hard I try to escape the cycle.

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Oh, my, if you're forever stuck in a cycle, you must have suffered under such a weight. What cycle are you trying to escape?

[ because the way he talks, existence sounds like a prison. ]

I've only ever wanted to be free. I tried to leave the Circle and they hunted me down. I joined the Wardens, where mages are allowed to be outside the Circle, and they tried to bring me back. I left the Wardens because they wanted to control me. I went to Kirkwall, to try and help other mages, only to watch them become more and more oppressed by the City of Chains.

I died, and I did not even get the rest of the Void. I'm here. Still imprisoned.

[ elysia's expression softens. she can tell much has embittered him. ]

I am sorry life has tried to chain you in every way. I am beginning to see why justice holds importance to you. Why are mages discriminated against where you're from?

[ she is very sweet and understanding about this, and he knows he's being too angry, but he can't really help it. it's too easy to slip into the anger as always. ]

Why? Fear. The Chantry has long preached that magic is the root of all evil, that mages are unable to control themselves and will fall to blood magic and summoning demons at the slightest provocation, or that if we are allowed to govern ourselves, we will aim to install ourselves as rulers. I have no desire to rule over anyone, and there are many ordinary men who lust for power and gain it with armies.

[ sorry that he's already ranting about mages. this is very ic of me. but im still sorry. ]

[ anger often has an underlying cause even if it explodes all the place. she knows some very angry people. she doesn't mind. she likes learning about people, anger and all. ]

Hmm.... the upper crust really do fear what or who they can't control, a little too much. I've brushed against that a couple times, but I don't think it's anywhere near what you've had to suffer or endure.

I am sorry that the Chantry didn't want to try to understand or appreciate you or the other mages.

[ she will listen to any and all mage rants anders has. ]

[ SURELY SOME TIME IN YOUR 50k YEARS ELYSIA. but profiles aren't unlocked yet so he couldnt know that. ]

... It's very strange to get these sorts of responses. Usually it's something much more expletive-riddled. Or at best an eyeroll.

[ It's fine... it's fine... her 50k doesn't matter right now. She's curious of anders' much less than 50k. ]

It helps that I wasn't raised in a society like that. Mages aren't that common even if there are people with amazing abilities.

But I can't help but think what I think even if it's not what the majority does. Maybe you just needed to meet more people.

[ people not brainwashed by his world's chantry. ]

You do seem of an independent mind.

[ for example, her hair is pink. ]

As for meeting people, I do plenty of that. There's a lot of you here, and you're all insane.

[ it the extreme levels of pink that make her insane. he's got it.

she smiles. ]

Sometimes, you have to be a little insane to move forward or to be able to move anything forward. Are we better or worse than your Chantry?

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