lucas catchall

[florescences]

i hope someone kisses him in heaven

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[florescences]

[ that's true... it's easier to be dead than alive in some ways, as long as you don't mind a bigger feeling of helplessness. ]

So, your redemption is what you want.

[faithkept]

[The power of delusional faith helps with that.]

I wouldn't really consider it a birthday gift, but I do wish to return to her, yes.

[florescences]

[ this is why religion is a problem. ]

Is your sister the only thing that drives you now?

[faithkept]

[LISTEN. Maybe so.]

I wish to return to my students, as well.

[florescences]

Are those the only two things?

[faithkept]

[HE'S JUST LIKE ???? BECAUSE HIS LIFE IS SO FULFILLED JUST WITH THAT. Also he needs to go kill Scien Brofiise. It is not yet thoughtshare in this thread or otherwise i would have thrown that in for some fun.]

Ought there be more? There are other things that I'm looking forward to, of course, but I don't know necessarily that I'd say they drive me...

[florescences]

[ she doesn't think he needs more than two things. she is still trying to figure out what's wrong. that would be so funny during thoughtshare.... if only!!!!! ]

No, of course not. It could have been only Nadia, and I would have understood. Didn't I tell you your dedication to both your sister and your students was what made you beautiful when we first met?

[ one of their first conversations. ]

[faithkept]

[IF ONLY... He would happily tell her about what an evil insane bad satanic creature Scien is.]

Ah—it feels like it was such a long time ago, somehow... But I do recall. I'm glad, then... I assume your reasons for wishing to return are also the same as they were, and that you're still going to make the same choice?

[florescences]

[ he should do it in our next inevitable thread this week.

there's a beat. ]

Yes. I shouldn't waver from it.

[faithkept]

[grips you. okay consider it done.]

—Shouldn't?

[A little curious, since the wording and that brief pause makes it seem as though she may have considered otherwise.]

[florescences]

[ thank you aki love to see insanity on the daily

she smiles. ]

Yeah. I shouldn't. [ ... ] I won't. It'll be okay.

[faithkept]

[u know i am here to deliver]

...Is there something that you'd rather do instead, though?

[florescences]

It's not a rather. It's not a matter of want. It's only a matter of doing, now that we're near the end.

[faithkept]

[His head cants a little to the side.]

Well. You do suit decisive action.

[florescences]

[ she flashes a peace sign. ]

I do, don't I? That's how Elysia should be.

[faithkept]

[Uruha is here...]

I hope that it's how you would like to be, as well, and not just what you think you ought to be.

[florescences]

[ is uruha the originator of the peace sign to lucas.... ]

Of course it is. I will always and only ever be Elysia.

[faithkept]

[HE DOESN'T KNOW ANYONE ELSE WHO USES IT.]

I suppose that's very true.

[florescences]

[ SHE IS RIGHT HERE. ]

I couldn't stand to betray myself like that.

[faithkept]

[Maybe so........]

I can't imagine that would would. [But this is edging too much into thinking about clones territory so he's running.]

In any case - why don't you tell me a bit about what you've been doing over here?

[florescences]

[ would would.....

coward!! but that's fine... she'll let it go for now. ]

I don't know if I'd say I've been doing overly much. It's nothing different than what I've been doing on the other side. I've been learning about the other angels and writing.

[ it's a lot of letter writing. ]

[faithkept]

[you are merciless]

Ah, yes... I'd imagine you get a lot of them.

[ara your fucking letters]

I suppose it's better this way, though. To be able to have time to write letters and rest a bit, especially after all everyone on this side has been through.

[florescences]

I appreciate every letter I receive. [ sincerely! ] I want to write more people sometimes, but even here, the time gets away from me.

[ because i spend over two hours writing letters and then i'm like that's enough ]

Maybe... I do like to be able to do more, but I'm also used to waiting for others to find a way.

[faithkept]

[YOU JUST LIKE ABSOLUTELY NOT fair and valid rip to the plentiful long letter writers elysia and yves.]

I'd think it would actually be a bit easier to lose track of the time over here than over there, so that makes sense...

[But he nods at that, because he gets it, too.]

Unfortunately, it feels as though there's a great deal of waiting for others here.

[florescences]

We don't have to move by as regimented a structure as the other side... for better or worse.

[ it makes things easier to deal with in some ways, but also... she knows it makes others feel as there's not as much autonomy or ways to help. ]

At least I've become good at that, too.

[ waiting, she means. ]