[ at least on some of the points, she does understand a little too well right now even if it makes her heart hurt even more for jiaoqiu. if it's not duty, it's love and having to consider what love will win out in the end ends in some kind of heartache.
however, she flicks one of his ears very lightly. ]
It may be difficult, but your happiness matters, too. Do not want him to find someone better. You can want him to be happy without you, but you are the someone better. Okay?
He'll have to settle for someone worse.
[ she's both joking and serious. mostly serious. ]
[ a huff of a laugh, at that. he tries, half heartedly, to pout at the flick like she might pout at him, but he only slightly manages. ]
You continue to be too kind to me.
[ anyway. he doesn't see the point in talking about it if there isn't a solution. he knows better than to expect a happy ending, and it makes him feel like he's going to drift away. he's spent so much time trying to hold on to anything but nihility these days, so.
he changes the subject. ]
Will you tell me what will happen to you after all of this?
[ unfortunately, she thinks the attempt at a pout is really cute, and it makes her smile. ]
I'm the right amount. Sometimes, I think I should be even more loving.
[ if that's possible? it's possible.
she's thoughtful, wondering if she should let him to change the subject so easily, but as much as she does want him to talk about all his problems, she also doesn't want their reunion after so many weeks to be all heartache, even if it's important. it's always important. ]
I plan to go back to my world. I have unfinished business to take care of. There's an unwanted visitor I need to kick out.
Well, that visitor is kind of why I'm here in the first place, but don't worry. It's because I'll get to see my friends again that I'll be fine. I'll call them to me, and they can help me.
[ at least she exudes confidence that she'll be able to fix the reason why she died in the first place. ]
[ her joy blooms when he says it aloud. it's not that she can't tell or doesn't know, but she knows how much it is for him to say it and express it in this way. her heart could burst with how happy this makes her. ]
Thank you. I'm so happy to have met you and known you. You are one of the best parts about this piece of Heaven.
[ she truly loves him so much, more than she has the words to say. even if she will keep trying to say it in as many and in as little words as possible. ]
[ he goes SO red. aaaaaaaa. he does not know how to handle this sort of thing!!
but he doesn't hate it, and it makes him feel warm, makes him feel - worth it, he supposes, which is something he struggles with consistently. he cares for her a lot, and it makes his eyes burn, his throat feel tight. this entire week has been like saying goodbye over and over again.
a little shuddery sigh, and then: ]
Let's not go too far. [ weakly. he's not the best, he doesn't think, but. ] I will never forget you.
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[ at least on some of the points, she does understand a little too well right now even if it makes her heart hurt even more for jiaoqiu. if it's not duty, it's love and having to consider what love will win out in the end ends in some kind of heartache.
however, she flicks one of his ears very lightly. ]
It may be difficult, but your happiness matters, too. Do not want him to find someone better. You can want him to be happy without you, but you are the someone better. Okay?
He'll have to settle for someone worse.
[ she's both joking and serious. mostly serious. ]
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You continue to be too kind to me.
[ anyway. he doesn't see the point in talking about it if there isn't a solution. he knows better than to expect a happy ending, and it makes him feel like he's going to drift away. he's spent so much time trying to hold on to anything but nihility these days, so.
he changes the subject. ]
Will you tell me what will happen to you after all of this?
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I'm the right amount. Sometimes, I think I should be even more loving.
[ if that's possible? it's possible.
she's thoughtful, wondering if she should let him to change the subject so easily, but as much as she does want him to talk about all his problems, she also doesn't want their reunion after so many weeks to be all heartache, even if it's important. it's always important. ]
I plan to go back to my world. I have unfinished business to take care of. There's an unwanted visitor I need to kick out.
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Haha, ah... I'd be terrified, if I was that unwanted visitor. [ a beat. ] Will you get to see your friends again?
[ he thinks about her last conversations with them a lot, the ones he saw. ]
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[ at least she exudes confidence that she'll be able to fix the reason why she died in the first place. ]
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[ a little smile. ]
If only you could call upon me, as well. I would bring the full force of the Yaoqing. [ he figures feixiao would be down. ]
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her love overflows and she tightens her hold onto him, as if she never wants to let him go. ]
I love you so much, Jiaoqiu. Have I said that yet today? I love you so, so much.
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a beat, and he shifts to slip his arms around her in return, hugging her.
he struggles a little with it because it's still terrifying to say out loud, it's still hard to get the words out. writing them was easier. but. ]
... I love you too, Ellie. [ scary, scary. but he means it. ]
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Thank you. I'm so happy to have met you and known you. You are one of the best parts about this piece of Heaven.
[ she truly loves him so much, more than she has the words to say. even if she will keep trying to say it in as many and in as little words as possible. ]
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but he doesn't hate it, and it makes him feel warm, makes him feel - worth it, he supposes, which is something he struggles with consistently. he cares for her a lot, and it makes his eyes burn, his throat feel tight. this entire week has been like saying goodbye over and over again.
a little shuddery sigh, and then: ]
Let's not go too far. [ weakly. he's not the best, he doesn't think, but. ] I will never forget you.