florescences | marcoh catchall

[ at least he's been bandaged. that's a good sign.

she watches him for a moment before she sets a chair at the end of bed in the angle of wherever the other three are. ]

Hmm.... maybe it's a good thing you're not super chatty. Did they give you painkillers yet?

[ Oops my small text bye.

He nods stiffly. Hard when he's got a bunch of bandages there. ]

Are the other three looking alright?

[ His voice is of course, shot to shit, and he'll probably not have it tomorrow with how much he's forced himself to talk in general today but hey. ]

... You all could use a lot of rest.

[ she doesn't like to lie. ]

I want to talk to you, but I don't want to make you talk too much.

[ the dilemma. ]

...

[ Well he looks at her... certainly nothing stopping her from talking to him at the least. ]

But it's a little lonely to have a one-sided conversation.

[ ... ]

Do you think you'll all be okay eventually?

[ from the trauma. ]

I will be alright.

[ He still has a voice for now but it sounds terrible. But anyway, he will be, even though he looks absolutely fucking exhausted with a very uncharacteristic depressive aura around him. ]

I was supposed to keep them out of harm.

... Will you?

[ she doesn't seem so sure about that. she is noticing that melancholic air about him, but she's still trying to figure things out.

I know you did as best as you could. Everyone came back alive, and I'm thankful for that.

Yes.

[ Well. He actually does mean that believe it or not. Even if he feels like shit he doesn't really know what to do other than perservere. ]

[ not the extra space

perseverance doesn't always mean you're fine or that you're okay, just that you're here. ]

I think I want to wait and see with you. Is that okay? I'm just a little worried.

...

I will be here as long as they want to be.

[ Looking at the other three present until we all fuck off for curfew or don't I guess. Elysia is welcome to stay until then. ]

Do you feel compelled to stay with them, or... what do you think will happen if you're separated?

[ she's wondering if it's a trauma bond or a trauma effect. ]

They have been through enough hurt. It is my fault. They should have let me go to fix it.

I trust in them to be alright, but I don't want to abandon them now.

Are you not also hurt?

[ injuries include, he has some depressive aura going on even if that's just a cyoa effect because he's one of the raven boys. although elysia is still trying to figure that out. ]

I have heard you all say similar things... how it's your fault you're all hurt. I would never want you to abandon them, bu why should they have let you go?

[ Ty really chose to twist the knife so bad he has never known active depression like this and it's crazy. ]

I did not die when I should have. It released a demon, that made them hurt each other.

[ And him, but he is not being purposefully exclusionary or anything it's just that words are hard. ]

[ so sorry that one of the new things he's learning this mg is active depression. ]

Should you have died? That doesn't sound right.

[ It's crazy man he doesn't like this feeling. ]

Was supposed to. I lived, because of a king named Glendower.

But it was for nothing. He wasn't in his tomb.

And I broke his sword.

[ DEPRESSION INTENSIFIES ]

[ it's emotional growth (?). ]

It sounds like you forced into some kind of ritual. What does this king do, or what was he supposed to do?

[ Everyone makes him talk so much about CYOA it's hilarious. This is why he fully lost his voice by Saturday. ]

Made me live, when I was supposed to die. Spent my whole life looking for his tomb. Wanted answers.

[ sorry, marcoh. ]

It sounds like you were meant to fail.

[ if he wasn't in his tomb. ]

You were led to a false objective, and all of you suffered for something that was never meant to be fair.

[ He goes quiet for this sorry. Yeah, sounds like what Elysia said and it sucks when he's fresh out of the super bad depression. ]

[ she opens her arms to him, looking for some part of him that's somehow not injured. ]

[ Well that's mostly his left side. He doesn't look up to hugging but he does kind of glance at her uncertainly. ]

[ he is exuding so many sad vibes she thinks he needs a hug even if he doesn't want one.

she hugs him from the left side. it's a gentle thing. ]

[ He will accept it... not with enthusiasm but more like, well, acceptance. ]

[ she doesn't need enthusiasm. ]

I'm sorry, Marcoh. You shouldn't have to have gone through this or made to feel this way.

I can tell it doesn't sit naturally in you.

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