[ she smiles a little although there are some complicated feelings behind it. ]
I don't know if I can say that's surprising or not. On one hand, that seems so you, but on the other hand... most people can't help but feel a little resentment when they're betrayed.
[ is that a proper use for those special blades? ]
I understand why he did what he did. And I believe him, when he says that he won't let the Hishaku do as they please. If he had somehow reobtained Tobimune and approached me years ago, I might've even agreed to be cut down, without a fight.
[but this wasn't years ago, it was now, after too much had been lost already.]
I'm angry at him, but I'm worried as well. He's never been the kind of person willing to rely on others, even at the cost of his own happiness.
[ the question is funny to her, but she doesn't laugh.
she shakes her head. ]
No. [ it's said in a slightly softer tone. ] I didn't want him to be alone. Kevin was the first one who volunteered and successfully took to that surgery. Because he was first... his side effect was worse than most.
Hmm... Became isn't quite right? Because our era was nearing its end, we wanted to preserve some of its memories. I'm a simulation created by Elysia's memories.
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I'd be lying if I said not at all, but...
[because it really did come out of left field for him, even if in hindsight, he can recognize that he and samura have been fractured since long ago.]
I don't resent him for it.
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I don't know if I can say that's surprising or not. On one hand, that seems so you, but on the other hand... most people can't help but feel a little resentment when they're betrayed.
[ is that a proper use for those special blades? ]
But you're not most people.
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I understand why he did what he did. And I believe him, when he says that he won't let the Hishaku do as they please. If he had somehow reobtained Tobimune and approached me years ago, I might've even agreed to be cut down, without a fight.
[but this wasn't years ago, it was now, after too much had been lost already.]
I'm angry at him, but I'm worried as well. He's never been the kind of person willing to rely on others, even at the cost of his own happiness.
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Yeah.
[ that's a soft and understanding agreement. ]
I've seen that kind of purpose in someone before. It cost him his happiness, too. Do you think anyone can get through to him?
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[ her tone is light, as ever. ]
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Speaking from personal experience?
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Huh?
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I wasn't born with those. They were a side effect.
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[to be honest, this kind of experimentation is very outside of his wheelhouse so he's just ???]
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the mirrors shift to reflect something else now (20:23 to 26:23).
ignore.... how her model has her elf ears here..... tears up when the narrative tells you something different than what you see ]
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a lot of that was confusing, but.]
... Did you want power?
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she shakes her head. ]
No. [ it's said in a slightly softer tone. ] I didn't want him to be alone. Kevin was the first one who volunteered and successfully took to that surgery. Because he was first... his side effect was worse than most.
[ ... ]
But we did need power. I can't say we didn't.
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[even with missing context, he could tell that much from the memory.]
Misery loves company.
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[ still, she smiles. ]
But he was a major part of it. Can you imagine your body temperature getting so cold that no one can no longer touch you? That's how it was for him.
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[ whoa what a convenient time for the mirror to show a relevant conversation. ]
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he is so confused.]
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It's like if you fed a computer your entire memory and couldn't hold anything back and it spat it back out back into your brain.
And then with what it ate... it created something from the ingredients you gave it into a beautiful replica with no difference.
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I'm still Elysia.
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Sorry, I think I get the general idea, but this is way outside of anything I've dealt with.
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