[ she would laugh if he weren't going through it. ]
Are you trying to scare me off? [ she isn't coming closer, not yet, but she isn't stepping back. ] If being worried about you is putting myself first, I'll happily be selfish.
Is that what you're thinking I'm doing? If you don't want to talk to me, is there someone you will talk to?
[ she understands he is more emotional than usual right now. maybe she isn't the best person for him to talk to him because of their history, but still... ]
Even if you want to be alone... I'm sorry. I think it's better if you're not right now. I don't like leaving people who are afraid alone.
[ Well, her being here is a distraction, at least. And he can feel himself growing more put together just by having someone nearby. The attention is incentive to no longer be overly emotional. ]
I see.
[ He'll sigh, rubbing his face before pulling one leg in toward his chest so he can rest his forehead there. ]
It's a little hard to open up when I don't think I've ever seen you show weakness.
[ he's so difficult. she feels like they circle this point with her too often, and still, he thinks she doesn't show enough when he closes himself off more than she does. ]
You say that too much with me. Will it only count as weakness if I break down?
[ she hums a little before she sits down next to him. ]
I've had many years to think about my past and my history. If I show weakness, it will pass soon enough because I like to move forward. It is difficult to be affected by much for long when my world died 50,000 years ago.
she holds out a hand to him, an open invitation. ]
It's fine to worry and be afraid. I'm not a stranger to those feelings even if I don't show them often. Gabriel seems to be very understanding in a lot of ways, so I think your judgment might not be what you think.
[ HE HAD A MENTAL SPIRALLLL he will take the hand because she's trying, and it's rude to reject the offer. ]
I suppose. There's reason to have hope, and I don't think that poorly of myself. [ ... ] But sometimes you can't force yourself to make sense. I don't know why.
[ he could continue to be rude reject her... that's fine. but since he takes her hand, she intertwines their fingers. ]
Because you're human. [ she smiles. ] Fear is never rational, but it can help guide you. I think you're strong enough and smart enough to let it move you where you need to go rather than let it keep you down.
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[ i'M SORRY... HE'S SO MEAN... I HATE YOU CLAUDE ]
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Are you trying to scare me off? [ she isn't coming closer, not yet, but she isn't stepping back. ] If being worried about you is putting myself first, I'll happily be selfish.
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Maybe. I don't want to be someone you have to fix.
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You aren't. I'm not trying to fix anyone or you. That means I think there's something wrong with you, and I don't.
I just want to listen to you and talk to you. Is that okay?
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He hates being vulnerable.
And he just tenses when she draws closer, flinching away. ]
No. Please, just leave me alone. I'll be fine in a moment.
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[ soft. quiet. ]
I don't mind however you want to lash out, you know. I was ready for it weeks ago.
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[ Even though he did. Sometimes emotion gets the better of you. ]
Or being sincere with you. [ ... ] You've babied me enough.
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[ she understands he is more emotional than usual right now. maybe she isn't the best person for him to talk to him because of their history, but still... ]
Even if you want to be alone... I'm sorry. I think it's better if you're not right now. I don't like leaving people who are afraid alone.
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I see.
[ He'll sigh, rubbing his face before pulling one leg in toward his chest so he can rest his forehead there. ]
It's a little hard to open up when I don't think I've ever seen you show weakness.
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You say that too much with me. Will it only count as weakness if I break down?
[ she hums a little before she sits down next to him. ]
I've had many years to think about my past and my history. If I show weakness, it will pass soon enough because I like to move forward. It is difficult to be affected by much for long when my world died 50,000 years ago.
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So you've had all your heartbreaks already, hm?
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the way he witnessed one of her heartbreaks in real time, and he still says this. everyday, she sees how claude and yves are best friends. ]
Most of them. What's bothering you, Claude?
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But he's been warmed up a little, relaxing despite his hesitation... ]
Mostly frustrated that I can't control my emotions. The fear I feel over judgment day. [ ... ] There's no point in worrying over it now, I know.
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she holds out a hand to him, an open invitation. ]
It's fine to worry and be afraid. I'm not a stranger to those feelings even if I don't show them often. Gabriel seems to be very understanding in a lot of ways, so I think your judgment might not be what you think.
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I suppose. There's reason to have hope, and I don't think that poorly of myself. [ ... ] But sometimes you can't force yourself to make sense. I don't know why.
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Because you're human. [ she smiles. ] Fear is never rational, but it can help guide you. I think you're strong enough and smart enough to let it move you where you need to go rather than let it keep you down.