yves still can't help the concern in his expression, even as he looks down at her. his smile turns into something a little rueful as she describes it as another memory—right, because soon they'll only be memories.
well... he at least can share the confidence in his choice. ]
And you are so lovely to me, even though I hate to bring you to tears.
... I really do understand. [ why he can't stop her, because he loves and respects her so ] So... it's alright.
[ all elysia is are memories. she can't help but cling to them.
he may never know how much he's shaken her, but her resolve has a little more clarity now, and she knows he will be going somewhere with adolphe, if nothing has changed.
her feeling settle, even if there will always be an ache. that's enough. ]
Sorry for bringing the mood down with my tears. [ even if they weren't really sad ones, not quite. ]
It was refreshing to have him talk to me, though. You bring people together in surprising ways.
[ see, the thing is that yves has said over and over this week—love is infinite. there will always be more of it to find. even if he's no longer looking for romantic love, he is never going to be surprised when it shows its head. he lacks jealousy for this reason, because isn't love such a wonderful thing?
and yet—it makes sense to him that with elysia of all people, he'd never have to say a word about it. she already gets it. he laughs and then presses his face into her hair, endeared and amused. there really is such a natural, immediate understanding between them even as abnormal as they are ]
... thanks Ellie. I'm happy too.
[ he can't deny this. he'd never think to because I've loved him for so much longer than I knew and I never thought he'd feel the same and that's something he cherishes too ]
I'm just... glad you get it.
[ that he doesn't need to explain further or have his own feelings doubted. all of his love is true. every last bit. ]
[ love is radiant and everlasting. it will bloom again and again. the seeds will be sown to grow amidst anything and everything, among whatever destruction and despair, and it is the one belief that elysia cannot be shaken from. love, in all its forms, is the greatest beauty to behold.
her elation for his love and his love that is returned is true. it will always be true. she has wanted so desperately for yves to know love. ]
It'd break my heart if I couldn't understand you. I love you, so how couldn't I know how you love?
[ for how much understanding means to her. for what it means to love. ]
How couldn't I know your happiness when I see it? I'll always accept each and every part of you, from the darkest to the lightest. Everything you wish to give is true to me.
Even the part of you that'd ruin the world for me.
[ she slides her arms down to loop around his waist, and she tucks her head into the crook of his neck as she thinks, i love you more than i love myself. i could love you more than the world. ]
she could love him more than the world, but she doesn't. perhaps if he didn't have his attentions divided, if he didn't already have someone who loves him who has already promised him a devoted future without end, he'd pursue that thought more. he'd ask what it means to want to love each other more than the world, even if it means damnation. even if it means going against the redemption they've arrived here for.
she tempts him to be selfish and he is just barely pulling himself back from the ledge.
the question diverts his thoughts and he ends up laughing about it. he pulls her back in closer ]
Adolphe also told me that we should be kept a secret, and to keep acting as normal. Isn't this normal?
[ but he will be reasonable, ] I'm afraid I can't spare any more kisses for you, Ellie... but he does know I love you. I think his rules are just that I can't say as much to him.
If he asks more of me, I'll do as he asks... [ because yves is loving and devoted and so terribly loyal, and adolphe has locked him in entirely ] but I think he understands the type of person I am, too.
[ but who knows! they haven't been on mingles together much because adolphe hates trial and execution. ]
[ could is damning enough for elysia. could is something that is able to turn into would, and it's a little frightening to think about, but she won't because yves has a future with someone who can promise him one. it's more than enough to keep her from continuing the thought because elysia, for all her thousands of years of waiting with her memories, is someone whose future has been lost long ago.
and no one has ever asked her to consider choosing a future. what would it mean to choose a future that meant she'd choose everything she hasn't before?
she is content with her present, and everything yves says does more to settle things for her. ]
His shyness is going to make things more difficult for him.
[ they are naturally affectionate, but if that's the decision, she isn't going to argue it. adolphe does his best to stay away from groups of people anyway, so it might end up being fine. ]
It's okay. We had that one night. I don't need more.
[ it's a ridiculous thing to say with her arms still around him, but need and want are different things. ]
I wonder if he was thinking of you when he was asking me all these questions a while ago. Do you know he asked me what I'd do if the person I loved most asked me to stop loving everyone else?
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[ she takes in a shallow breath, and her tears stop as quickly as they came. ]
It's okay. Nothing's wrong. Thank you for telling me all that. It's another precious memory.
[ she laughs, but it's shaky. ]
You are so beautiful to me. Thank you.
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yves still can't help the concern in his expression, even as he looks down at her. his smile turns into something a little rueful as she describes it as another memory—right, because soon they'll only be memories.
well... he at least can share the confidence in his choice. ]
And you are so lovely to me, even though I hate to bring you to tears.
... I really do understand. [ why he can't stop her, because he loves and respects her so ] So... it's alright.
Don't listen to Claude about things like that.
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he may never know how much he's shaken her, but her resolve has a little more clarity now, and she knows he will be going somewhere with adolphe, if nothing has changed.
her feeling settle, even if there will always be an ache. that's enough. ]
Sorry for bringing the mood down with my tears. [ even if they weren't really sad ones, not quite. ]
It was refreshing to have him talk to me, though. You bring people together in surprising ways.
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[ affectionate, as always. even if they only got one night together, his love really is everlasting. ]
But... well, if that helped your relationship, then I'm glad. I'm lucky to be so cared for by you both.
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And by Adolphe, too, right?
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People keep asking me about this when he wanted to keep it a secret.... but yes.
[ he's not much of a liar in general ]
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I'm truly, truly so happy for you. I'm content.
[ even if she, too, would have liked to be able to spend forever with him.
there is more peace in her heart. wow!! love is real!! ]
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and yet—it makes sense to him that with elysia of all people, he'd never have to say a word about it. she already gets it. he laughs and then presses his face into her hair, endeared and amused. there really is such a natural, immediate understanding between them even as abnormal as they are ]
... thanks Ellie. I'm happy too.
[ he can't deny this. he'd never think to because I've loved him for so much longer than I knew and I never thought he'd feel the same and that's something he cherishes too ]
I'm just... glad you get it.
[ that he doesn't need to explain further or have his own feelings doubted. all of his love is true. every last bit. ]
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her elation for his love and his love that is returned is true. it will always be true. she has wanted so desperately for yves to know love. ]
It'd break my heart if I couldn't understand you. I love you, so how couldn't I know how you love?
[ for how much understanding means to her. for what it means to love. ]
How couldn't I know your happiness when I see it? I'll always accept each and every part of you, from the darkest to the lightest. Everything you wish to give is true to me.
Even the part of you that'd ruin the world for me.
[ she slides her arms down to loop around his waist, and she tucks her head into the crook of his neck as she thinks, i love you more than i love myself. i could love you more than the world. ]
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Adolphe told me he's the type to get jealous. Should I.....
[ she loosens her hold on him a fraction. ]
I'm so used to touching you.
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she could love him more than the world, but she doesn't. perhaps if he didn't have his attentions divided, if he didn't already have someone who loves him who has already promised him a devoted future without end, he'd pursue that thought more. he'd ask what it means to want to love each other more than the world, even if it means damnation. even if it means going against the redemption they've arrived here for.
she tempts him to be selfish and he is just barely pulling himself back from the ledge.
the question diverts his thoughts and he ends up laughing about it. he pulls her back in closer ]
Adolphe also told me that we should be kept a secret, and to keep acting as normal. Isn't this normal?
[ but he will be reasonable, ] I'm afraid I can't spare any more kisses for you, Ellie... but he does know I love you. I think his rules are just that I can't say as much to him.
If he asks more of me, I'll do as he asks... [ because yves is loving and devoted and so terribly loyal, and adolphe has locked him in entirely ] but I think he understands the type of person I am, too.
[ but who knows! they haven't been on mingles together much because adolphe hates trial and execution. ]
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and no one has ever asked her to consider choosing a future. what would it mean to choose a future that meant she'd choose everything she hasn't before?
she is content with her present, and everything yves says does more to settle things for her. ]
His shyness is going to make things more difficult for him.
[ they are naturally affectionate, but if that's the decision, she isn't going to argue it. adolphe does his best to stay away from groups of people anyway, so it might end up being fine. ]
It's okay. We had that one night. I don't need more.
[ it's a ridiculous thing to say with her arms still around him, but need and want are different things. ]
I wonder if he was thinking of you when he was asking me all these questions a while ago. Do you know he asked me what I'd do if the person I loved most asked me to stop loving everyone else?