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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-23 07:11 pm (UTC)(link)
[ he looks thoughtful at that, wondering. ]

... yes and no.

I don't think I'm afraid of rejection anymore. I don't think anyone will get my hopes up about loving me and then cast me aside... not here, at least.

[ it's not like the island where they are all so superstitious and terrified every single day of their lives. ]

... but I do wonder if I'm not meant to be loved the way I want to be loved, since it keeps happening.

And I wonder... if I need to start becoming okay with that.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-23 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ a nod.... but in its simplest terms: ]

I want to be in love with someone who is in love with me.

[ he's learned well enough now that he's loved. people are kind to him, but they always follow it up with 'you are such a wonderful friend' and so he knows, still, it's not what he's looking for.

he cherishes it. he loves it.

but dear god he wants to be in love so badly ]
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-23 11:38 pm (UTC)(link)
[ well.

he does remember this conversation. and so his heart does skip a bit, treacherously and traitorously. still, he just smiles at her and tilts his head ]


Do you want to be in love with me, Ellie?

[ for as much as love is a choice. ]
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-24 12:06 am (UTC)(link)
[ . . . well, he does understand that. but. ]

... what about Adolphe?

[ the way that this is mutual love confessions but yves is like. still gotta think about my bro ]
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-24 12:28 am (UTC)(link)
So I was right.

He really just needs to get out of his own way. He's so annoying and needs to admit I'm right about everything.

[ factually untrue, ]
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-24 12:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ but. he looks thoughtful at that. ]

... someone told me it's possible to love more than one person at once. I think... that's true, because I do. I think it's also possible to be in love with more than one person at once.

[ . . . ]

I think the people I'm in love with right now might make that complicated.

[ because... he wants adolphe to be with elysia, because he thinks they could make each other happy—but that depends on adolphe, just as much as it depends on elysia. yves can't force things, even if he can be gentle in her encouragement and sincere with his observations.

and... well. there is claude.

they make it to the flowers, and yves turns to face elysia. he takes both of her hands in his and looks thoughtful. he didn't think he'd have to think this hard about falling in love. or maybe it's not the falling that was the hard part, but what comes after. the landing. ]


... but I do love you, Ellie. Every piece. I don't want to shy away from that, just because other things are complicated. If it's about the feeling, then I think you deserve to hear that from me. I want you to hear it from me.

To know that someone's seen all the parts of you that you care to share—and I love you.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-24 06:10 am (UTC)(link)
[ everyday i will be shaking over the fact that adolphe never said that to her king why do you leave all your banger romantic lines for your best friend who even are you

understanding is an interesting thing, though. for yves, who knew elysia for one week and came to the conclusion that they were cut from the same cloth. there are things about her that feel so faraway—to think that she is someone who is meant to destroy humanity, and yet. and yet to meet her, and love her nonetheless.

still, it warms his heart to be told that she's in love with him too. it is what he wanted to hear for so long, and... it makes him feel just a little bit like he's floating. for something that he chased after for so long, he was worried. would it not be enough? would it never fully measure up to what he was hoping for?

he didn't need to be worried. his heart aches in the best way, and it finally feels like a pain that's a little worthwhile.

and yet— ]


Ahaha... why did I have a feeling you'd say that?

[ he accepts their intertwined fingers, but he also uses their hold to pull her close to him. as if they've been apart for far too long already. ]

Tell me why, Ellie. [ soft, not all that demanding ] Why would you not want me to choose you when I've already been in love with you for so long?
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-25 02:15 am (UTC)(link)
[ if he were to be truly honest with himself, he'd guessed as much. elysia had shared that she'd already met the end of her life, and has since lived in her simulation. in that simulation, she's able to be with all of her friends, yes—but they are not exactly alive. and if yves is to be honest with himself, when he thinks about where he wants to take adolphe after this... a place that is not truly alive isn't quite right. not when there's options for them to proceed elsewhere.

that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt to know. that doesn't mean it doesn't cause him an ache deep in his chest to hear it. ]


... you have somewhere else to be, right? [ if he remembers correctly. ] Is it somewhere you don't want to be followed?

[ is there no chance of meeting again after this, even if it's possible to connect the different worlds? he finds himself wondering, because even now, he seeks love. always, he seeks love.

it is hard to have what he wants given to him and then immediately slipping out of his fingers before he can get a true grasp on it ]
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-25 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
[ it's different from the confident, glowing girl that everyone gets to see—even if right now, yves still thinks that she's so lovely. he'll let his arm settle around her waist instead, pulling her close to him so that he can be whatever type of shield or guardian he can muster. even if it's just for a short time.

he tucks her hair behind her ear before letting his hand cup her cheek gently. with so much affection and tenderness, he leans down to press a kiss to the opposite cheek, as if that'll do anything at all to help. maybe it won't make anything better, but he hopes it won't make anything worse. ]


... I know that what you want is to always help people. To do your best with the difficult situation you're handed.

[ and that's something he could never condemn her for. ]

It's alright to admit it's frightening. That you don't want things to end.

I wish you didn't have to.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-25 04:07 am (UTC)(link)
[ he understands. and he'd said it well enough in the letter— ]

Even if I understand the choices that you make, I will always want to choose you.

[ no matter how selfish it makes him. there is a version of events where elysia is the only person that he's in love with, and he follows her even if there's nowhere else to be after, because it doesn't matter to him that there will be no world to exist in after because she is already his entire world. it is so close that there are whispers of it in his ear, telling him that for the love he craves what other option is there in this—such maddeningly simple, adoring minutes.

he can only just barely resist it.

instead, he'll lean down to press his lips to hers as if to capture some of that selfishness himself. ]


Thank you for showing me your honesty and your selfishness.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-25 05:16 am (UTC)(link)
[ her magical girl transformation is a little surprise—but yves just laughs and goes along with it the same way that he goes along with the floating. he still keeps his arm around her waist to keep her close, as close as he can possibly keep her, especially knowing that soon she may have to be gone. so far gone that he'll never reach her again, and—

ah, he'd burn the world for her. but he can't, because that is the world she loves.

he lets his arms loop around her and then picks her up to spin her, lifting her just a bit and then lowering her just enough for their mouths to catch again. ]


If you were to cry, I'd kiss each of your tears away. [ a promise ] But I'd always love to see your smiles instead.

So tonight, let's be selfish. [ as if it hasn't already been insane, but,, ] Let's only think of ourselves for one night, and choose each other even if tomorrow we can't anymore.

[ even if tomorrow, they'll both go back to being in love with other people and the world and every soul they could possibly stand to save.

but tonight, they can love each other without fear of repercussions ]


Let's go on a date, Ellie. One where you're just a girl, and I'm just the boy who's so in love with you.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-26 07:34 am (UTC)(link)
[ is it cruel?

or would it be a worst fate to never try? not even a little bit? yves thinks that he knows the answer, because he is someone who values love so dearly. if the feeling is there, wouldn't it be such a cruel thing to kill it before it has a chance to bloom in all its radiance? so he smiles into the kiss, and he lowers elysia down so he can properly hug her and laugh brightly as he presses his face into her hair.

adoration, clear and true. a hold so tight that it screams another night cannot go by where I don't get to be in love with you. ]


You'll make me into a greedy person, Ellie. Even then... I can't imagine wanting anything more than your affection and attention.

[ once, they'd talked about how their words to each other could sound so much like sweet nothings, even knowing that they meant every single word.

and yet tonight it still feels different. each statement feels so vivid and alive, something they'd only share with each other ]


Let's spend some time in the garden. I want to pick you a bouquet, and then we can catch the fireworks where the holidays are. Let's dance under the shifting lights, and I'll be yours until dawn breaks.
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[personal profile] noirges 2025-03-28 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
[ can he really stand to be greedy? he's already a person who has a heart that wants and wants and wants—he'd want forever with her, but the words never make it past his lips. he wouldn't dare risk anything to make elysia feel sad or guilty.

but... there is the way that his heartbeat ticks up when she kisses over his mask, and he wears his surprise for a moment, before all his fondness is made clear. he breathes in and then takes a moment to look over her head, making sure that no one else has wandered into the garden at this hour.

he did make a promise, about the day that she might feel that he understood her.... ]


... you should ask whatever you'd like of me, too.

If you'd like to see... [ if she wants to bear witness to the one thing that he's always kept to himself ] I'd let you.

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