[It's a little lonely, but honestly, for him, the promise of a reunion at the end of life is enough to tide him over. He really never had room in his current life for anyone else, anyway.]
It was a bit of a rocky path to get here, but given what we were working with, I don't think it was terrible at all.
[He can't blame people for being upset or hurt or feeling betrayed, even if he doesn't. He is a little miffed that they couldn't really lash out against the entity that had been fucking up their lives for so long, but it is what it is. A second chance is enough for him. For everyone else, it either will or it won't be; that's up to them.
He is definitely ready to drop contact, though. Fortunately there are the phones.]
I hope that everyone is able to use this chance to the fullest and find futures they're truly happy to live out.
[ elysia is understanding, almost always, even if she doesn't approach matters in the same way. she chooses to move forward because she doesn't ever want to stay stuck. ]
That's my greatest hope, too. I want everyone to have happiness even if it's not picture perfect. Every little seed of happiness can bloom into something more.
[He is trying to not be too selfish, even though he's an inherently lonely and selfish person who hilariously always wants for more. Very uncatholic. Or maybe very Catholic, actually.]
It will, in the same way that knowing we may someday meet again helps to ease the sting.
[ that could be very catholic. in the way most catholics are. elysia is also selfish and greedy in her own way, but she can make hard decisions for herself and others. ]
At the end of our second lives, you mean? I guess you're right. A long and far off reunion for many, I hope.
[Sometimes you just have to make those hard decisions, despite being selfish and greedy.]
Long and far off, indeed. I should hope for the same; it's still nice, though. To be able to know that there's something quite pleasant on the other side of death.
[He died alone and miserable and full of fear despite violently repressing all of those feelings, so being able to look forward to a reunion after death is something very soothing.]
[runs to you with my little rat paws and presents my horrible nugget of death meta
Goodbyes are terrible, but reunions are nice. The notion of having something to return to at the end of a long and well-lived life is reassuring in a way that he can't really articulate well.]
It does. Death itself was quite the unknown venture, even for me... [For a highly devout person who expected to go to Heaven frankly. NOTHING PROVED HIM WRONG.] Taking the mystery out of it isn't something that I mind at all. I imagine many feel similarly.
[ his faith would be so scary if elysia weren't insane in her own way. NOTHING PROVED HIM WRONG BUT HE KILLED MULTIPLE INNOCENT PEOPLE. ]
It is the unknown that elicits fear in many. If it brings you and others peace, then maybe there is more to take out of this experience than the bonds we've made.
[ELYSIA BEING INSANE IN HER OWN WAY HARD CARRIED THIS CR. It is such a scary faith and yet it truly was not proven wrong in the slightest. He is both a good person and a serial killer and unfortunately sometimes the serial killing doesn't make the biggest impact.]
I do think that's true in several ways, really. There were certainly bad parts of this experience, but for me, at least, I believe the good outweigh it.
[Not just because of the bonds or the free ticket to heaven even though that is so good.]
He thinks over his answer for a moment, humming quietly.]
Well... Setting aside said bonds, since they were certainly the most important to me... I did learn much about myself. About the universe, the ways in which the world can work. In which many worlds can work. I feel it's expanded my views about many things in important ways, and that I've learned a great deal in general.
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[It's a little lonely, but honestly, for him, the promise of a reunion at the end of life is enough to tide him over. He really never had room in his current life for anyone else, anyway.]
It was a bit of a rocky path to get here, but given what we were working with, I don't think it was terrible at all.
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It could have been a lot worse. It could have been a lot better, but in the end, everyone has a future, and that's enough for me.
[ that's what she wanted most for everyone. even if people are dissatisfied that they can't do much about satan. ]
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He is definitely ready to drop contact, though. Fortunately there are the phones.]
I hope that everyone is able to use this chance to the fullest and find futures they're truly happy to live out.
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That's my greatest hope, too. I want everyone to have happiness even if it's not picture perfect. Every little seed of happiness can bloom into something more.
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[Said with fondness and amusement and just a little hint of something lonely.]
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I'll miss the easy way we bounce off of each other.
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I will, too. I do appreciate that we still have our phones, but it will hardly be the same.
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[ even if she knows it's not enough for some. ]
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It will, in the same way that knowing we may someday meet again helps to ease the sting.
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At the end of our second lives, you mean? I guess you're right. A long and far off reunion for many, I hope.
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Long and far off, indeed. I should hope for the same; it's still nice, though. To be able to know that there's something quite pleasant on the other side of death.
[He died alone and miserable and full of fear despite violently repressing all of those feelings, so being able to look forward to a reunion after death is something very soothing.]
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elysia's deaths either been too abrupt or sudden or by her own choice, but she has always liked the idea of reunions even if she hates goodbyes. ]
It makes death and dying just a little less unknown and alone, doesn't it? To know what you will fine. And maybe who.
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Goodbyes are terrible, but reunions are nice. The notion of having something to return to at the end of a long and well-lived life is reassuring in a way that he can't really articulate well.]
It does. Death itself was quite the unknown venture, even for me... [For a highly devout person who expected to go to Heaven frankly. NOTHING PROVED HIM WRONG.] Taking the mystery out of it isn't something that I mind at all. I imagine many feel similarly.
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It is the unknown that elicits fear in many. If it brings you and others peace, then maybe there is more to take out of this experience than the bonds we've made.
[ and the free ticket to heaven. ]
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I do think that's true in several ways, really. There were certainly bad parts of this experience, but for me, at least, I believe the good outweigh it.
[Not just because of the bonds or the free ticket to heaven even though that is so good.]
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she nods, listening. she can't disagree with what he's saying. ]
What parts stood out for you? What were the best things that helped you outweigh everything else?
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He thinks over his answer for a moment, humming quietly.]
Well... Setting aside said bonds, since they were certainly the most important to me... I did learn much about myself. About the universe, the ways in which the world can work. In which many worlds can work. I feel it's expanded my views about many things in important ways, and that I've learned a great deal in general.